This is me, my name is Kelli and I’m 17-years-old, battling cancer for the third time. I have less than a year to live and the only thing I want to do more than anything before I die is meet Ellen. She’s my sunshine. She’s the reason I wake up everyday and I watch her show every morning. She just radiates so much joy and happiness and she gives me hope. It’s really my dream to be able to meet her. Unfortunately, due to a long waiting list, the Wish Foundation told me I probably wouldn’t be able to meet her within my short timeline. But I see miracles happen all the time.. therefore I won’t give up on my dream. I thought that maybe if this gets enough attention, someone from the Ellen Show would come across it, or maybe even Ellen herself will know of me and my wish to meet her. Please, help me make my wish come true.
sometimes in the morning i am petrified and can’t move, awake but cannot open my eyes. and the weight is crushing down on my lungs, i know i can’t breathe and hope someone will save me this time. and your mother’s still calling you insane and high, swearing it’s different this time. and you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her, and that god never blessed her insides. then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things, crawl back into bed to dream of a time when your heart was open wide and you loved things just because, like the sick and the dying.
and sometimes when you’re on you’re really fucking on and your friends they sing along and they love you. but the lows are so extreme that the good seems fucking cheap, and it teases you for weeks in its absence. but you’ll fight and you’ll make it through. you’ll fake it if you have to. and you’ll show up for class with a smile. you’ll be better and you’ll be smarter and more grown up and a better daughter or son and a real good friend. and you’ll be awake. you’ll be alert. you’ll be positive though it hurts. and you’ll laugh and embrace all your friends. and you’ll be a real good listener. you’ll be honest. you’ll be brave. you’ll be handsome. and you’ll be beautiful. you’ll be happy.
The best song ever written.
Everything I do. I tell you all the time: Heaven is a place on earth with you. Tell me all the things you wanna do. I heard that you like the bad girls honey, is that true? It’s better than I ever even knew. They say that the world was built for two. Only worth living if somebody is loving you. Baby, now you do.
I love this more than most things.